I wanna be sedated

Tomorrow is the day. 2:30 PM. Nervous but excited.
I've cooked up a bunch of meat for tacos and prepped some veggies for snacking and tonight with supper I'll cook up another thing or two to warm up and we should be good for a while until I feel better and want to make things. J is rather kitchen challenged, so he can do lunches, but I am planning ahead or he'll just order in pizza all the time. My stomach will not like that so I'm trying to be healthy.

Since I can't eat or drink before surgery and I work with the health region I am going to go into work and keep busy until I have to shuttle over to City Hospital for surgery. It's been crazy trying to get everything done knowing I'll be off a week. I hope I feel reasonably OK after a week when I go back...I have no idea. I may not be walking to work for a while...

I've been getting in solid workouts all week and had a fun weekend away with friends at a mini-festival J did lights and lasers at so I feel like I'm ready. Compared to all the other things this seems rather simple...

We shall see. I'll check in when I'm home and medicated.
Later taters :)

Here we go


So.
How's things?
It's all sorts of good here.
There was a cancellation, so I am booked to go in for my fat grafting surgery next friday afternoon on the 26th for a day surgery. It's actually about as perfectly scheduled into my life as possible so as to not impact my summer, so I'm very pleased. I could do without the soreness and being off work a week, but hopefully I'll heal up pretty quick. I just have to decide if I want to let him do some scar revision when I'm under too...it would mean a bit more healing, but at this point if I'm gonna let them suck fat out and move it somewhere else I figure I should let them do everything they can to make the skin on top look good too Yes it would be a bit more skin healing, but maybe it's better in the long run. I may just tell him to do what he feels is best and see what I have when I wake up :)

I was hoping to have more time to dial in my fitness a get more fit and have been munching back on the few pounds I worked so hard to lose previously over the last few weeks, but over all I've been healthy and other than a bit of jiggle I am strong, so I know I will be OK. I just have this irrational fear of losing the fat that I am having relocated later, but what is will be I guess. I am hoping I can go for walks with the weather getting better during recovery so even if I can't work out for about a month or so I will be able to walk and be relatively OK for the hike I am planning in the mountains in July. My friend Terra who I will be hiking with will be preggers so I will be able to take it easy anyways! Summer should be easy, and although I really don't have spare holidays since I have things booked up it is really nice to be looking forward to summer.

J has been busy working to build a stage for a spring music festival with his friends - that is coming up this weekend and I've had lots of time to relax and spend with family while he's been away working here and there. I have had some time by myself and am trying to use it to catch up on things around the house and get back on track with what I need to get done this summer. J still has issues sometimes, but with lots to work on it's helped immensely. Still working to build better communication. There is love and I will continue to try to stand up for me and what is important to me and try to build us up stronger.

I went up to see my dad this past weekend at the lake and had a great time visiting. We went to my mum's grave on mother's day and brought here a bunch of red carnations (her favourite) and then had lunch before I came home - I was so glad to be able to think about mum on mother's day. It rained all day until right before we got to the graveyard where the sun shone and the birds sang for us for a bit.  I don't get to see my dad enough so it was really a great visit. I hope I can get there again soon.

Dad & I :)

Have a great week everyone. I'm off to tabata class and then I have a date with my living room to get some chores done. Cheers!


Nothing is everything

I am over the moon. I finally went to see the "best breast" guy in Saskatoon about my fat grafting to finish up my breast reconstruction. It took months to get in to see him...and he spent a lot of time with me answering questions and then told me that my best bet would actually be to go back to my original plastic surgeon because he had far more experience in what i need done. I liked the guys so if he's recommended to me then I was happy to go back to him - so I called up their office and he fit me in right away for a consult that week.
I went to see him this thursday morning before I left for the weekend for the comic convention with my friend Heather in Calgary (Which was SO much fun. Visited my sister. Got geeky. It was cool....another post for that I think...gotta show my geeky pictures!!). I'd been psyching myself up for the surgery and all that and Dr. Laliberte said that he could definitely help me even things out although it might take two goes at it to get the best results (ugh) but that recovery time as about a week, so it wouldn't be too bad. He remembered me and chatted with me a bit and answered all my questions. He really cares about his patients and it shows.
And then I sucked it up and asked him to hit me with the cost and he said ...."nothing". I blinked and probably looked like a fish out of water and said "excuse me?" and he said "It's nothing. I donate my time and cover the costs for this because I firmly believe that this should be a part of treatment recovery so I am making sure that it is done at no cost to you." I was in tears as I thanked him and signed my papers. All systems are go.
So I'm on the wait list for it now - I'm hoping to get it done before the end of June, but if not then I will ask to have it in the fall after my summer adventures. Yup. It's happening...and it's free. I am stunned to be honest.

I am truly blessed to have the caring team I do looking after me. Crossing my fingers there is a cancellation and I van get fit in right away!! :)