Gentlemen we can rebuild him...
I have decided a way to begin rebuilding my muscles. Every morning I will do the following this week before breakfast. Next week I will do it twice thru. Then maybe change the pushups to burpees. Then in chemo week I'll just do what I can and get back to it when my body permits.
10 lunges right leg
10 lunges left leg
10 side lunges, both sides
20 bicycle crunches
It's so odd after what I could do before. My legs were shaking after doing this this morning. I can only do pushups from my knees. Yes... I am weak, and can feel it in my legs already, but will be strong again. Functional strength. It sounds wierd to say but I need to be back in touch with my body again and what it can do. Even if it's just a little bit.
I also picked up a yoga DVD which I am curious to try a few times a week during chemo week when I can do less. My doc suggested yoga to help with the aches so I will try that and see if it helps. I think just stretching and moving will make a difference. My doc told me, and it turns out to be true, that the more I move the less crappy I feel even when I don't feel well. I have been more active this round taking walks whenever I can and feel much better overall compared to last round. I am convinced going out dancing helped...on many levels. Truth is, This is something I need to do to feel like I am not giving up too much to sickness. Because some days it's easy to start in on pity party here alone at home all day. This helps me fight that with something concrete beyond a "some day I'll be better", for the odd day when I just don't quite believe treatment will ever finish.
Tomorrow I meet with my surgeon to talk about my next step after chemo. Nervous....oh yes...but I want to know what my options are and what tests I need to move forward. And I'd be lying if I said I wasn't dying to know if I can go to Comicon the end of April or of I'll be in survery recovery instead. It's the first step in figuring out how I get back to my life again.