Last night I didn't get home from meetings until after 8 and by the time I ate and settled in to (hooray) work on my project summary report that is due in a few days it was around 9...and didn't get to bed until nearly 11 when I gave in and stopped as I'd developed a killer headache and couldn't do anything else useful. J ordered me to sleep. I woke up mid sleep with a killer headache still lingering and gave in and had a few advils and a huge glass of water and went back to sleep...my headache has lingered on in baby form this morning, but is fading finally, I think. I slept in and although I had a good breakfast and packed a healthy lunch there was no workout. Again.
I'm not liking this. Working and doing your master's at the same time is a lot of work - don't let anyone tell you otherwise. I'm still figuring out scheduling and what to do when. I took too much time for relaxing earlier in the month when I should have been diligent and done more here and there...and now that my paper is due a week before I thought (they really should tell you you have to submit it 1 week before the day you have to present it at your progress meeting...it came as a surprise to me and I'm a week behind...) I'm running around getting it not just in, but *good*. I will not submit crap. I know what I'm capable of. You can't cobble together scientific data with chewing gum and string - I'm designing improved quality diagnosis methods for breast cancer treatment...this is, as they say, the shit. I love it. I refuse to do anything less than my best.
It's coming down, at crunch times like this, to a choice of either sleep or workout and sometimes I need the sleep to be awake enough to do what I need to do. And one of the things I want to do is exercise. I feel like I'm becoming lardorific. It's just PMS talking, but it's talking loudly...in that grating voice that mother in laws had in old 50's TV shows...
I'm feeling wibbly and need more fitness...although this morning I couldn't have worked out even if I wanted to...it was all I could do to stumble down to have an aspirin and sleep for an hour.
I'm not giving up and still am trying to exercise...trying to be positive and do little things here and there when they present themselves. I am looking forward to it warming up a bit more-then I can walk or bike to work. That fits in exercise into my day without even thinking and will go a LONG way to adding to my fitness. Morning walks are lovely. It'll come.
We shall keep at it...whatever it is :)
First thing is to get this damn paper done...then I can have 2 whole days off for the easter bunny resurrection egg day.