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Showing posts with label rant. Show all posts

all work and no play makes Geo something something...

Ladies and germs-I am tired.
Last night I didn't get home from meetings until after 8 and by the time I ate and settled in to (hooray) work on my project summary report that is due in a few days it was around 9...and didn't get to bed until nearly 11 when I gave in and stopped as I'd developed a killer headache and couldn't do anything else useful. J ordered me to sleep. I woke up mid sleep with a killer headache still lingering and gave in and had a few advils and a huge glass of water and went back to sleep...my headache has lingered on in baby form this morning, but is fading finally, I think. I slept in and although I had a good breakfast and packed a healthy lunch there was no workout. Again.
I'm not liking this. Working and doing your master's at the same time is a lot of work - don't let anyone tell you otherwise. I'm still figuring out scheduling and what to do when. I took too much time for relaxing earlier in the month when I should have been diligent and done more here and there...and now that my paper is due a week before I thought (they really should tell you you have to submit it 1 week before the day you have to present it at your progress meeting...it came as a surprise to me and I'm a week behind...) I'm running around getting it not just in, but *good*. I will not submit crap. I know what I'm capable of. You can't cobble together scientific data with chewing gum and string - I'm designing improved quality diagnosis methods for breast cancer treatment...this is, as they say, the shit. I love it. I refuse to do anything less than my best.
It's coming down, at crunch times like this, to a choice of either sleep or workout and sometimes I need the sleep to be awake enough to do what I need to do. And one of the things I want to do is exercise. I feel like I'm becoming lardorific. It's just PMS talking, but it's talking loudly...in that grating voice that mother in laws had in old 50's TV shows...
I'm feeling wibbly and need more fitness...although this morning I couldn't have worked out even if I wanted to...it was all I could do to stumble down to have an aspirin and sleep for an hour.
I'm not giving up and still am trying to exercise...trying to be positive and do little things here and there when they present themselves. I am looking forward to it warming up a bit more-then I can walk or bike to work. That fits in exercise into my day without even thinking and will go a LONG way to adding to my fitness. Morning walks are lovely. It'll come.

We shall keep at it...whatever it is :)

First thing is to get this damn paper done...then I can have 2 whole days off for the easter bunny resurrection egg day.
Hallelujah.
bunny photo

WTFGBBQ

I keep reading on people's blogs about how they "warmed up for 25 or 30 minutes on the elliptical before their workout...". And it's really pissing me off.

Why?
Well, currently I can't even do just that without my left knee being annoying. That's all. No real workout to speak of. Sure lots of long walks but no endorphin pumping sweat dripping workouts. I'm slowly gaining weight...I am up 2 pounds...because I am not able to be as active as I want to. Not a big deal...yet...

Grrr...I believe it may be that I need new shoes. So I will do that. I pronate badly, and it may be making my knee go funny. It's not sore *yet* but it has that feeling like it will if I don't let off. It's starting to click. And I'm not even *doing* anything strenuous to speak of...
So no workout today (again), as it was starting to stiffen up after an hour long walk with J last night.

I hope the new shoes and the leg strengthening exercises I am doing will help.
If that doesn't work - I'll get some orthotic insoles.

If *THAT* doesn't work...well...I will resign myself to cupcakes and beer my good peeps. I'm on the edge of the "I'm tired of trying, maybe life is giving me a hint" danger path that leads off the wagon and all the way to Caketown.

I keep trying to be healthy...I really do...but I can't. I can't even do 30 minutes on lowest settings on the elliptical...even though I used to be able to run 10 K and do squats and lunges. I'm stressed out and I *need* exercise to keep me sane.

Or I turn to food.

WTFGBBQ?
This is really really pissing me off.

I will not give in. I promise. I've come too far to give up.

Doesn't stop me wanting to just a little though...

plague prevention

Well I didn't work out this morning but I had a very valid reason. I was waiting in a ridiculously long line to get both flu shots before work. Luckily my labs are part of the hospital, so asthmatic little me (who gets really sick when I get the flu) could get both the regular flu shot and the H1N1. I know the H1 N1 flu isn't too serious a strain, but for me it's worth it. My husband is coughing and appears to be coming down with the flu....I don't know if I got in on time to miss what he has, but I'm hopeful....
My doctor friends are freaking me out (since they know I've taken it) and telling me about all the potential side effects from the adjuvant in the vaccine in Canada, and admittedly I am a bit concerned at how it was rushed through approval. Still, given how VERY sick I get from complications when I do get the flu, it was not a choice for me. In addition, work paid for it, so really...I'm there. I find it strange that every province has been allowed to have their own H1N1 immunization responses and I've been ranting loudly about my province's: here the H1N1 is free for all, but the regular flu shot is open only to seniors and health care workers this year. Yup you heard right -in the past I was told it was critical to get seasonal flu shots (and I agree) because of the complications my asthma brings to the flu (usually pneumonia and bronchitis...wheee).
This year in Saskatchewan? Nada. I cannot get it any other way. I have tried to get it by other routes - I could not. Not through the immunization clinics, not through my doctor even, and regular flu clinics were cancelled to make sure the H1N1 vaccine got out to everyone.

Ridiculous I say. I was just told that I should write a letter to the minister of health about it and I have. I haven't gotten a reply yet....I'm curious to what their response will be about how suddenly a "vital" vaccine isn't necessary for me, since I need to get a vaccine to a less virulent form of flu instead. My coworkers and husband are sick of me ranting about it. Luckily now it's moot. I have both.
As a microbiologist I get the theory: Yes H1N1 is a new strain of flu never gotten before by humans. That means if you are exposed you will catch it. Period. End of story. You have no built up immunity to it yet - our whole species is lacking...but since it's much milder than the average flu, it's not such a huge risk unless you're old, very young, pregnant or have heart/lung conditions. Honestly, I think they are responding well, as if this was more virulent, we'd be screwed. Really , we would. As it is there will be a lot of missed time at work for a lot of people this fall. I know someone who's brother had H1N1. They said it was a mild flu. Not that big a deal for the average person.

I was struck this weekend by the deep chill of fear about a *real* pandemic. I mean, what if the next pandemic is more like SARS? Or worse...something that kills healthy people on a mass scale? Something very contagious? When we were at the mall this weekend I saw someone very sick and thought..."wow...that's how it would begin". Slowly 1 or 2 people would be sick, then more and more and by the time we tried to limit exposure people would be sick all over the place...health care providers too. I mean, it happened with SARS on a small scale. The plague in Europe and the spanish influenza knocked out huge chunks of the population. In our modern age with increased sanitation and very good immunization programs, those of us living in the developed world have no concept of what a strong pandemic could do. We don't see our loved ones die of illness like even our parents did. I've never seen anyone with polio or the measles...and I think it makes us a bit soft. Despite the rare risks from a limitedly tested vaccine, I was in line this morning, yawning away, to get both vaccinations. (for the company's info sheet on the vaccine being distributed in Canada, go here. Make an informed choice. The last 4 pages are standard patient info and the rest is all the info gathered on it that your doctor would get. Ask your doctor about it. I'm guessing he's smarter than me :) )
I count myself as lucky. Vaccinations are important. I cannot risk giving flu to my Mum, Grandma or my little neices or nephews-they could get very ill. It's really about the community health, not just me. Handwashing and good hygeine will help keep you well - but there is no serious harm in getting vaccinated.
If I was not asthmatic I don't know as I'd get the H1N1 vaccine until I saw more data about the vaccination affects, simply because I'm a bit paranoid, and I like to know things are well tested before I take them. The vaccine company's website lists all the testing done on the vaccine, and it is far from thorough and complete in my opinion. There are complications (like any medication), and age gaps in testing results and pregnant women (in my opinion) should not get the vaccine with adjuvant - it's not know what it will do to them. There will be an adjuvant free vaccination for them and small children. This vaccine just is not as well tested as the other vaccinations we have. Yet, in my opinion, safe enough to take for the average person. I am definitely provaccination. I know the difference in my health when I get this vaccine. I'll let you know if I develop a third arm or have a wierd complication K? K.

Here's hoping I miss the flu this year :)


Much later in the day: I am tired...arms still sore, but I'm still here. Pretty much what happened last year when I got the shot. :)