Slept in this morning. I don't do it often but I was really tired and we were up late going to the Attack on Titan movies (which were cheesy but the effects were very cool). It was raining so I bussed in to work too. Feeling a bit lazy but it's OK. I am PO'd at the rain because I was planning to rake my yard tonight and we are not ready for snow yet so I'm hoping I can get some dry weather so I can get some raking done before we head out for the weekend or I fear we'll have moldy leaves to rake in the spring. Boo. We have 5 big trees near our house so there's always a tonne of leaves...I guess that's what I get for leaving it this long. I hate raking too early or you have to do it twice. I hope there's still time before it snows to get at least some done...
I plan to work out in some way when I get home today although my brother may invite me over to their place for supper and if so then I may just be taking the day off entirely...my chest and arm feel fine now so I may go back to Insanity again tomororow. I'm finding the workouts to be repetitive...challenging but repetitive. They're so intense they're not boring at the time but still...a little variety would be nice...and I'm missing squats and more compound strength exercises. I notice that my clothes are all loose now and so I know I'm making changes in my body but I'm actually glad that this is the last week of the first month of the workouts because that means we get new workouts coming up to cycle through. Sure they'll be even harder but at least they'll be new. I'm debating doing a week of insanity an then a week of other workouts in between just to break things up and add a bit more variety...we'll see. I don't want to be a quitter so I feel determined to finish off this last week of the month and then do the recovery week and I'll see how I feel once I start the new workouts. The last thing I want to do is injure myself right before my surgery so I want to be reasonable about things...I just want to be diligent up until surgery.
I meet with my counselor today. I have no idea what to expect. I hope we don't waste a whole session on me telling her about myself...sigh....as well, here's hopinh it's a start to something better moodwise.
It's a cold and drizzly day here. Time for some tea methinks...
What a weekend
It's a chilly morning...about -4. My right front shoulder and pectoral were sore yesterday so instead of doing insanity this morning I decided to go out for a run instead. I must say - Insanity has definitely got my cardio stamina ramped up. I could run my old route no problem - 4 times of run 8 minutes and walk 2 minutes, stopping for breaks at the weir and turning around at the Mendel gallery. As I ran the fog was rising off the river and the sun was creeping up and I couldn't believe that after all I've been through I'm right back here...out running in the dark and loving it still. I think the total run is about 4 or 4.5Km. It felt great to be out. Ran to an old Sound of Trance podcast and had a nice stretch out after. The podcast had tracks like Unprepared...that make me run and feel alive. It felt wonderful to be out again. I need ot do it more often before it gets too cold to be out. :)
This weekend was glorious as well. Friday we had a great meal out with friends at a Burmese place. We watched a few more Doctor Who episodes...getting caught up on this season. Having an AppleTV is great - we can stream our music all over the house now and we can just buy the season of Doctor Who and watch it like normal people again. I also got my flu shot and we had a great meal at J's parents place...painted pumpkins with my nieces (mine is Wonder Woman dontcha know) and ate a lot of rice pudding and drank a lot of horchata. Mmmm...
Sunday we went to the library and I went ingredient hunting so I could make some palak paneer and chapatis and we relaxed and read books and coloured the local radio station's adult colouring contest (the prize is free beer for a year - I've gotta try!). Mellow day. Much relaxing with my love. Perfect end to a weekend.
I also finished priming the wall shelf unit my Dad built ages ago - I am working to have it painted by the time he is here to do renos. I am quite embarrassed at the fact that it's taken me this long to do (he brought it here in the spring...ahem) but I need to have it finished so he can help us assemble it while he is here. The 3 bottom parts are already done and painted. I'm just working on the top bookshelf parts now. I have to get the paint shaken up and then I can get to the colour part. If I do a bit whenever I can from now on it should be done by then...I hope...because then when he comes I have to prime and paint the bathroom vanity he is building for us so I need to clear up the space to do that :)
Tonight - I am so excited - the Japanese live action film of the anime Attack on Titan is playing for one night only at the movie theatre. I really like this anime and was thinking I'd have to wait and just order the DVD off the internet...but I am happy to say have tickets for J and I for tonight for parts 1 & 2. I even finished sewing the patches onto my scout jacket yesterday (it was going to be my Attack ion Titan costume for Comic Expo but the patches didn't come in time) and plan to wear it and geek out tonight. As a side note - just FYI - sewing 4 large patches onto a leather jacket makes your fingers feel like you've been playing guitar for a week straight. Just saying.
Ah well...who cares :) Tonight's gonna be awesome :)
Also - and this is kinda big -I've taken a month off Facebook. I was spending all of my time there. WAY too much time. Bored? Go on Facebook.. Waiting for the elevator? Go on Facebook. Break at work? Go on Facebook. Something interesting happen? Take a photo and post it on Facebook. Ugh. I came to realize just how much I needed to disconnect from that. I need to reset my focus...to live in the now more. I need to be present and interact with people in the real world and stop wasting so very much time online doing essentially nothing. I have things to do. Books to read. Things to learn. I'm hoping this will reset my brain for a bit. I'm finding it almost like cutting out coffee...more of a challenge than I anticipated...which just confirms to me that it was a good idea.
I hope you all had a great weekend. I need to get to work. Have a fabulous day!
This weekend was glorious as well. Friday we had a great meal out with friends at a Burmese place. We watched a few more Doctor Who episodes...getting caught up on this season. Having an AppleTV is great - we can stream our music all over the house now and we can just buy the season of Doctor Who and watch it like normal people again. I also got my flu shot and we had a great meal at J's parents place...painted pumpkins with my nieces (mine is Wonder Woman dontcha know) and ate a lot of rice pudding and drank a lot of horchata. Mmmm...
Sunday we went to the library and I went ingredient hunting so I could make some palak paneer and chapatis and we relaxed and read books and coloured the local radio station's adult colouring contest (the prize is free beer for a year - I've gotta try!). Mellow day. Much relaxing with my love. Perfect end to a weekend.
I also finished priming the wall shelf unit my Dad built ages ago - I am working to have it painted by the time he is here to do renos. I am quite embarrassed at the fact that it's taken me this long to do (he brought it here in the spring...ahem) but I need to have it finished so he can help us assemble it while he is here. The 3 bottom parts are already done and painted. I'm just working on the top bookshelf parts now. I have to get the paint shaken up and then I can get to the colour part. If I do a bit whenever I can from now on it should be done by then...I hope...because then when he comes I have to prime and paint the bathroom vanity he is building for us so I need to clear up the space to do that :)
Tonight - I am so excited - the Japanese live action film of the anime Attack on Titan is playing for one night only at the movie theatre. I really like this anime and was thinking I'd have to wait and just order the DVD off the internet...but I am happy to say have tickets for J and I for tonight for parts 1 & 2. I even finished sewing the patches onto my scout jacket yesterday (it was going to be my Attack ion Titan costume for Comic Expo but the patches didn't come in time) and plan to wear it and geek out tonight. As a side note - just FYI - sewing 4 large patches onto a leather jacket makes your fingers feel like you've been playing guitar for a week straight. Just saying.
Ah well...who cares :) Tonight's gonna be awesome :)
Also - and this is kinda big -I've taken a month off Facebook. I was spending all of my time there. WAY too much time. Bored? Go on Facebook.. Waiting for the elevator? Go on Facebook. Break at work? Go on Facebook. Something interesting happen? Take a photo and post it on Facebook. Ugh. I came to realize just how much I needed to disconnect from that. I need to reset my focus...to live in the now more. I need to be present and interact with people in the real world and stop wasting so very much time online doing essentially nothing. I have things to do. Books to read. Things to learn. I'm hoping this will reset my brain for a bit. I'm finding it almost like cutting out coffee...more of a challenge than I anticipated...which just confirms to me that it was a good idea.
I hope you all had a great weekend. I need to get to work. Have a fabulous day!
New trainers!
So bright.
So warm.
Soooo precccioussssssss......
I knew my 3 year old Asics runners were pretty worn out but I didn't realize how much until I worked out this morning in the new Asics GT-2000 I bought yesterday. Same shoes...and a whole different workout today. Noticably softer bouncing with greater stability and cushioning. I could jump higher and land softer with better alignment. Comfy. I am very pleased. The fact that this time I could buy them in the most rediculously loud colours possible with reflective patterns is a huge bonus. I'm a neon freak. Last time it was white or white or white.Much better! J thinks they're hideous hee hee...
The workout went fine today and J and I were easily able to carry our new tub into the living room where it now lives for a while until it's installed. The drain just shipped today, so we should be golden for our renos. We did some measuring and have figured out how to get the sink and faucet in our new vanity. It's all starting to come together. Stress levels are fading. This just might work!
This weekend there is much to do. Get my flu shot. Go out for supper with friends. Early birthday supper with J's family. Some sewing and yardwork. It's gonna be glorious. :)
Have a groovy day all :)
So warm.
Soooo precccioussssssss......
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| hee hee neon... |
The workout went fine today and J and I were easily able to carry our new tub into the living room where it now lives for a while until it's installed. The drain just shipped today, so we should be golden for our renos. We did some measuring and have figured out how to get the sink and faucet in our new vanity. It's all starting to come together. Stress levels are fading. This just might work!
This weekend there is much to do. Get my flu shot. Go out for supper with friends. Early birthday supper with J's family. Some sewing and yardwork. It's gonna be glorious. :)
Have a groovy day all :)
Sploosh
My tub arrived!
The lazy delivery person just plopped it on a pallet in my backyard and refused to bring it inside. Good thing it's not raining. We have no driveway or place for them to leave it so J did well to get him to bring it to the lawn and not leave it in the back alley by the car. The 2 of us have to carry it inside when I get home. Rediculous - it's acrylic so it's not like it's heavy. Free delivery comes with all the perks it seems...sure just leave a $1000 tub wherever you like, don't worry. Sheesh.
Now we're just waiting for the special drain attachment for the tub to make it a super deep soaker tub (19" deep! he heh) and we're ready to go. This just might actually happen!! I was talking to my dad and he is still coming to do this in November, so once the drain comes all we need is to get a counter top from Rona for the vanity he is building us and some floor tiles. Shouldn't be too hard I hope. I'm hoping we have enough money left to swap out the light fixture in there too but we shall see. What was a tub replacement has turned into a super bathroom overhaul. Good...but pricey.
BUT! By this time next month after much labour and wierdness I will be able to have a bath. Squeeeee!
My dad is amazing. I cannot say how much he's helped me with the house already. We could not afford to do this without him doing all the labour - I and J will be his assistants and I can do most of the work but tubs and tub surrounds are a mystery to me. At 74 he is still able to do lots of things and with my help I'm hoping that this will go well. I don't even know how to thank him...
The lazy delivery person just plopped it on a pallet in my backyard and refused to bring it inside. Good thing it's not raining. We have no driveway or place for them to leave it so J did well to get him to bring it to the lawn and not leave it in the back alley by the car. The 2 of us have to carry it inside when I get home. Rediculous - it's acrylic so it's not like it's heavy. Free delivery comes with all the perks it seems...sure just leave a $1000 tub wherever you like, don't worry. Sheesh.
Now we're just waiting for the special drain attachment for the tub to make it a super deep soaker tub (19" deep! he heh) and we're ready to go. This just might actually happen!! I was talking to my dad and he is still coming to do this in November, so once the drain comes all we need is to get a counter top from Rona for the vanity he is building us and some floor tiles. Shouldn't be too hard I hope. I'm hoping we have enough money left to swap out the light fixture in there too but we shall see. What was a tub replacement has turned into a super bathroom overhaul. Good...but pricey.
BUT! By this time next month after much labour and wierdness I will be able to have a bath. Squeeeee!
My dad is amazing. I cannot say how much he's helped me with the house already. We could not afford to do this without him doing all the labour - I and J will be his assistants and I can do most of the work but tubs and tub surrounds are a mystery to me. At 74 he is still able to do lots of things and with my help I'm hoping that this will go well. I don't even know how to thank him...
Where we're going we don't need roads
I got to visit my brother last night. It was a good visit with much tea. I was so tired I was home and in bed by 9:30 though. Some days just poop me right out. I feel much better today. Today is Back to the Future day - you know, the day Marty McFly and Doc went to in the future with the delorian? Tonight we're gathering with friends to watch the first 2 movies. It should be a hoot. I loved those films. It'll be funny to see just what we're supposed to be wearing in the future right now hee hee.
This morning was another workout -Pure Cardio and Cardio Abs again. I did the ab workout first and it was a lot better - I was able to do more because I wasn't so utterly pooped from the cardio. I feel very good now. I'm pleased to be keeping up with all of this. It's nice to make appointments with myself and keep them. Why stand yourself up - you're worth it :)
PS- in the world of science we are up to 10 flies for me and 11 for J. It's a tie. Not enough flies for statistical analysis either. What's a nerd to do?? I project years of studies to reach a conclusion...do we know how to have fun or what? :P
This morning was another workout -Pure Cardio and Cardio Abs again. I did the ab workout first and it was a lot better - I was able to do more because I wasn't so utterly pooped from the cardio. I feel very good now. I'm pleased to be keeping up with all of this. It's nice to make appointments with myself and keep them. Why stand yourself up - you're worth it :)
PS- in the world of science we are up to 10 flies for me and 11 for J. It's a tie. Not enough flies for statistical analysis either. What's a nerd to do?? I project years of studies to reach a conclusion...do we know how to have fun or what? :P
Geo's fun fact science corner
Somehow we've got fruit flies again. Not sure where they came from (I suspect the bananas I picked up the other day) but I want to get rid of them before they get outta hand. J and I always have a debate about what is the best way to trap them. I go by the old school method of cider vinegar with a bit of dish soap in a glass method covered with saran wrap with holes in it. J thinks the holes are too small for them to get in and I want them smaller so they don't get out after they go in. He sneaks in and makes the holes bigger. I rant. His theory is they just need to get in there to drown, no fancy cover needed. SO...in the interests of science we've done a comparison: one glass set up with plastic wrap and one without.
So far, J is leading by 1 fly. 6 in mine as of this morning. That may be most of the flies tho so we'll have to call it a tie. I figure mine caught the ninja flies and he got the dumb ones. Together we have won :).
I did my Insanity workout this morning again. It's tough, but I got it done. I was tired from being up late last night watching the election results roll in. It was a really pivotal election this time here in Canada. The country was crying out for a change. Although I'm not a big Liberal Party supporter I have to say I am so glad that the Conservative leadership of my country is over. In the last 10 years they have done more damage to Canada in so many areas...they were changing the Canada I love into something else. Slashing protection of natural habitat, scientific endeavors, breeding racism with changed immigration/terrorism laws, Bill C-51 that impinges on our chartered rights and freedoms and taking us into wars that we should have no part in...just to name a few things. I'm normally not very political but I was getting to be in the last while. I hope that things will improve with new leadership. I live in the conservative voting part of the country and unfortunately my candidate didn't get elected, but I am most proud that the voter turnout this year was the highest it's been in decades. People made their voice heard. It's reassuring to see that democracy can work for a change.
It'll also be reassuring to get back to non-political posts on my Facebook feed again too ;)
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| classy fly traps is how we roll here at Casa Neufeldo |
So far, J is leading by 1 fly. 6 in mine as of this morning. That may be most of the flies tho so we'll have to call it a tie. I figure mine caught the ninja flies and he got the dumb ones. Together we have won :).
I did my Insanity workout this morning again. It's tough, but I got it done. I was tired from being up late last night watching the election results roll in. It was a really pivotal election this time here in Canada. The country was crying out for a change. Although I'm not a big Liberal Party supporter I have to say I am so glad that the Conservative leadership of my country is over. In the last 10 years they have done more damage to Canada in so many areas...they were changing the Canada I love into something else. Slashing protection of natural habitat, scientific endeavors, breeding racism with changed immigration/terrorism laws, Bill C-51 that impinges on our chartered rights and freedoms and taking us into wars that we should have no part in...just to name a few things. I'm normally not very political but I was getting to be in the last while. I hope that things will improve with new leadership. I live in the conservative voting part of the country and unfortunately my candidate didn't get elected, but I am most proud that the voter turnout this year was the highest it's been in decades. People made their voice heard. It's reassuring to see that democracy can work for a change.
It'll also be reassuring to get back to non-political posts on my Facebook feed again too ;)
Clothing swap
Last night I went to my first clothing swap at a friend's house. I have to say - what a great idea. Everyone brings the clothes they don't wear anymore but are still in good shape (I had 2 bags full I'd been collecting) and they are laid out by category around the house. Everyone who comes takes a number and then each person gets to pick 3 items. This happens 2 or 3 times and then it's a free for all for what's left. Whatever is left after is donated to the local women's shelter. I came home with a bag of cool new stuff, got to visit with a friend of mine that I never get to see and met some new people. It was a lot of fun.
Being a social misfit the thought of being in a house with 13 women of whom I only knew 2 was a bit freaky but I was surprised again by the goodness of people. I have always gotten along better with guys than girls and am not a typical girly girl so I don't always play well with other women. I was nervous to go over but knew I should get out and have fun and wanted to see my friend Rachelle who I never get to see, so I put on my big girl sparkle panties and went over. The thing is, I still vividly remember back to being bullied and treated poorly when I was a chubby teen and that feeling and assuming people will be that way to me now always comes back and hangs out in the back of my mind when I'm off to meet new people, especially new women. I forget that I'm "normal" now (at least on the outside!). I am happy to say that everyone was nice and kind and I laughed and met new people. Everyone was suggesting clothes for others and there was no meanness. Just a fun time with a glass of wine and some nice people.
It was a good weekend. Got things done around the house and we picked up most of what we need for our bathroom reno that my dad is coming to help us with next month (Rona had a scratch sale so we saves some serious cash). The tub and sink we ordered have shipped (but not the special drain yet...gulp) and I'm hopeful they'll arrive on time (trying not to worry).We even picked up a floor rug for the living room that is super soft. I have been competing with the cats to lie on it. :) I'm also happy to report that the AppleTV works. We were able to buy the Season 9 to watch and saw the season premiere. So good. It's gonna be nice catching up and not having ot put my fingers in my ears and go "la! la! la! la! la!" whenever someone talks about the show. :) We have dragged ourselves into the technology of 5 years ago. Ooh. Ah.
This morning was the first fit test after 2 weeks of Insanity. 8 exercises for 1 minute with breaks. I really made some improvements! I don't have the numbers here with me but it was 1/4-1/3 better for all of the things except for the low jacks and plank crunches which I have already been doing regularly...although I still did a few more of those. For me the biggest change was the push-up jacks. I could do 25 on my toes!! To start I could only do 12 on my toes and then a few more on my knees. I kinda thought the fit test was a silly idea but now I get why they do it - so you can see how you're improving. Even though I struggle with keeping up on the workouts and still have to rest a fair bit on the Pure Cardio and Cardio Abs workouts I am getting stronger and faster.
Operation Uberfrau is definitely happening :)
Being a social misfit the thought of being in a house with 13 women of whom I only knew 2 was a bit freaky but I was surprised again by the goodness of people. I have always gotten along better with guys than girls and am not a typical girly girl so I don't always play well with other women. I was nervous to go over but knew I should get out and have fun and wanted to see my friend Rachelle who I never get to see, so I put on my big girl sparkle panties and went over. The thing is, I still vividly remember back to being bullied and treated poorly when I was a chubby teen and that feeling and assuming people will be that way to me now always comes back and hangs out in the back of my mind when I'm off to meet new people, especially new women. I forget that I'm "normal" now (at least on the outside!). I am happy to say that everyone was nice and kind and I laughed and met new people. Everyone was suggesting clothes for others and there was no meanness. Just a fun time with a glass of wine and some nice people.
It was a good weekend. Got things done around the house and we picked up most of what we need for our bathroom reno that my dad is coming to help us with next month (Rona had a scratch sale so we saves some serious cash). The tub and sink we ordered have shipped (but not the special drain yet...gulp) and I'm hopeful they'll arrive on time (trying not to worry).We even picked up a floor rug for the living room that is super soft. I have been competing with the cats to lie on it. :) I'm also happy to report that the AppleTV works. We were able to buy the Season 9 to watch and saw the season premiere. So good. It's gonna be nice catching up and not having ot put my fingers in my ears and go "la! la! la! la! la!" whenever someone talks about the show. :) We have dragged ourselves into the technology of 5 years ago. Ooh. Ah.
This morning was the first fit test after 2 weeks of Insanity. 8 exercises for 1 minute with breaks. I really made some improvements! I don't have the numbers here with me but it was 1/4-1/3 better for all of the things except for the low jacks and plank crunches which I have already been doing regularly...although I still did a few more of those. For me the biggest change was the push-up jacks. I could do 25 on my toes!! To start I could only do 12 on my toes and then a few more on my knees. I kinda thought the fit test was a silly idea but now I get why they do it - so you can see how you're improving. Even though I struggle with keeping up on the workouts and still have to rest a fair bit on the Pure Cardio and Cardio Abs workouts I am getting stronger and faster.
Operation Uberfrau is definitely happening :)
It's good to sweat
Yesterday after work I did come home and do the cardio recovery workout and today was the cardio plyometric workout. I'm excited to say I can do more in both workouts than last time. Less rests and almost all the pushups on my toes. I could push on the cardio more and take less breaks - my knees were higher. I was dripping sweat at the end though - it actually trickled down my leg. I was given pink sweat-wrist bands at the breast cancer run and I now know what they are for! I used them today to keep the sweat out of my eyes. The kitten apparently thinks sweat is catnip. When I plopped down to rest a bit after she thrashed around in my lap purring like a nutter...cats are weird :)
Yes. I feel stronger. It's a bit sad to think I'll just get all uberfraued up and then I'll be off for a while to heal, but I met with my original breast surgeon the other day and he is so pleased with how I've recovered. He feels me being strong before the surgery is the fastest way to heal up and staying active is how I've recovered my range of motion and strength in my right arm. It's good to hear from someone I trust that I'm doing the right thing.
Plus...well physically I just feel better. Yes I'm getting up at 5:20 so I'm in bed by 10 but I really need this in my day. My pants aren't snug anymore and I'm losing my muffin top again. I'm getting muscles in my arms and shoulders. Slowly I can see changes. It's neato.
It's friday and tonight we plan to go and get an appleTV and try and hook it up without losing our minds and then maybe, just maybe, watch an episode of the new season of Doctor Who. I tend to generate a field that prevents new electronics from working in our house unless we stand on 1 foot and do carnival tricks. Wish us luck...
Yes. I feel stronger. It's a bit sad to think I'll just get all uberfraued up and then I'll be off for a while to heal, but I met with my original breast surgeon the other day and he is so pleased with how I've recovered. He feels me being strong before the surgery is the fastest way to heal up and staying active is how I've recovered my range of motion and strength in my right arm. It's good to hear from someone I trust that I'm doing the right thing.
Plus...well physically I just feel better. Yes I'm getting up at 5:20 so I'm in bed by 10 but I really need this in my day. My pants aren't snug anymore and I'm losing my muffin top again. I'm getting muscles in my arms and shoulders. Slowly I can see changes. It's neato.
It's friday and tonight we plan to go and get an appleTV and try and hook it up without losing our minds and then maybe, just maybe, watch an episode of the new season of Doctor Who. I tend to generate a field that prevents new electronics from working in our house unless we stand on 1 foot and do carnival tricks. Wish us luck...
Anxiety - I haz it
Last night I went to see Delhi to Dublin and it was a great show. So much positive crazy energy. Their music is so unique and so infectious - they are a great band to see live. I danced my feet off. Now I am super tired today since we got home late and so I slept in the extra hour this morning, but I plan to work out when I get home. I was pretty creaky and stiff from all the dancing so I figured it would be better to rest and do this instead. I could dance all night and not be tired though. Yes, that is what I'm doing this for - to be able to enjoy life. It was good to get out and enjoy myself for the evening. As always it was a bit awkward being social and meeting a few new people but I really tried to be more outgoing and I think I did OK.
I spent a lot of time thinking about things yesterday...maybe too much. I don't know. I realized that although I'm doing well physically and am back at work I am finding that mentally I'm really disjointed. Also I'm trying to work to plan things to reno our bathroom with my dad next month and am getting waaaaayyyyy to stressed out over it...it's annoying. Anxiety - I haz it. I need to get it done before my surgery and my Dad also has a minor surgery that month too...I worry the tub I ordered won't arrive in time and we'll just have a hole in our bathroom with no tub or anything for weeks. Ugh.
And honestly, although I need to think about a lot of things I also don't want to. I'm usually a positive person and there is so much to be excited about in the next few weeks here....but lately it's been really tricky to feel involved and excited in regular daily things. Regular exercise has helped definitely, but I still have periods where I feel quite odd indeed...detached. Like when I was grieving the loss of my mum for a better way to describe it. Regular life is, after all, the point of life but sometimes I just want to hide under the duvet and let someone else adult. Lately some of the responsibilities I have make me tense up and worry like I have not ever done before and I'm thinking something is up. Apparently tamoxifen hormone levels can f*ck with you a bit so there may be a reason...well other than the whole cancer thing. It's weird...it's not really survivor guilt...just a feeling like the floor is going to fall out from under me at any moment and I left my parachute at home. At any rate, I've decided to take advantage of my workplace's assistance program and talk to a counselor about all the feelings I have post-treatment to see if I can have help hashing things out that have been rolling around in my head. I have an appointment next week. I hope it helps. I described my life/work yesterday as onerous and it fits...but it shouldn't because it's not like I'm up against anything remotely like I was 2 years ago. Brains are fickle things...
But, I must get to my day. I hope you are all getting thru the week OK.
:)
I spent a lot of time thinking about things yesterday...maybe too much. I don't know. I realized that although I'm doing well physically and am back at work I am finding that mentally I'm really disjointed. Also I'm trying to work to plan things to reno our bathroom with my dad next month and am getting waaaaayyyyy to stressed out over it...it's annoying. Anxiety - I haz it. I need to get it done before my surgery and my Dad also has a minor surgery that month too...I worry the tub I ordered won't arrive in time and we'll just have a hole in our bathroom with no tub or anything for weeks. Ugh.
But, I must get to my day. I hope you are all getting thru the week OK.
:)
Sweaty
Insanity cardio plyometrics circuit this morning. I could do more than last time and even push myself in spots. It's encouraging to see progress. I am definitely sweating!
And now my breakfast calls. I've got time for oatmeal. :)
*grumbley tumbley*
And now my breakfast calls. I've got time for oatmeal. :)
*grumbley tumbley*
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